PTSD: This is what I KNOW…….

HOW DO WE ‘CATCH’ PTSD? By experiencing two or more opposing realities within a single experience. Example, “I am Child, I am Safe” & “I am Child and I hurt when you love me.’ And the most obvious of those with PTSD are soldiers. Example, “I’m here to save lives, keep MY Country FREE and help these people.” …..as you shoot one DEAD! So tell me, how do we allow our Soldiers to be continually experiencing in virtual reality, an event that SPLIT THEIR SOUL?

The Jesuits were well aware of the damage to body and soul that lies cause. Our mind is not capable of holding two opposing conscious thoughts at the same instance. Try this, think of a past hurt that still stings a little, immediately allow your emotions to rise with the first thought that comes to mind. Now, picture the perpetrator and loudly without voice, speak “I Love You.” Notice the difference in your thinking? This is a testament to the healing of the Confessional for us Humans. Being honest with ourselves. Otherwise, we find ourselves engulfed with experiences causing psychic breaks we have no control of.

Without WAR, and the continuation of Crimes of Humanity Against Children, we can grow within each generation a competence to create a way to LIVE, rather than TO DESTROY.

PTSD / PTSS is a reality for every person in every generation in recorded history. It’s time Human Societies find a way to live and not to die, to free ourselves and not be enslaved from cradle to grave. Whatever “labels” are given to psychic breaks, they diminish the seriousness of the issue; in other words, the labels themselves are lies.

Mostly, we must judge ourselves as we judge children, magnanimously; with the gracious tenderness of LOVE. Know thyself in fullness, Beloved Child, and forgive all ……..

Within Eternity lies duration and TIME. Time only exists within Creation. We exist within Eternity that holds both. As Human Beings we are in Creation/Time where transformation can exist.  TIME!  A very sorry bit of time with unmitigated Global Warming ignored by our enslavers…

‘nobody’

…on the Isle of Cyclopes

 

I Offer you the Following, my Fellow Over-comers…With all my Heart.

    THE WOLF

Here I am again, suffering….

The pain in spirit befuddles my mind,
thoughts of my actions, humiliation; not humility.
Fear not confidence,  shame not forgiveness

Turning and turning the offending behaviour in my mind’s eye

stabbing my heart and my pride

fear of loss….

time in anguish sensing some great loss

what Loss?

Why does this hurt so deeply?

Oh, I think I shall die…this time…

All fear comes from fear of loss…
Loss of What?
In my pain, I cannot guess or think or imagine

The picture of myself, in those moments of unconscious behaviour
Oh, that painful, humiliating act by mouth or movement…
What loss????

It is only me, looking at myself, wondering how on earth
Did I Not Know Better!?!?
Was I hungry? angry? lonely? tired or just crazy again?  Again…
Again caught in the insidious web of my own insanity, so far removed…

Fear of Loss?
The loss of myself, Again….
This fragile mind so secure in its propriety, its found sanity…
How dare it raise its head in public!!??!!

Oh, the struggle to rest, to sleep.
My incriminating shame tearing at my consciousness as a wolf devours its prey,
blood dripping and bones gnawed….
such a fate preferred over this suffering.

No, this is not new…this is my companion, the bane of my life….

But I have not time now.  I must face the world of people again, Oh, No!
Please! Please don’t let me slip into that same place!
Not now! Please! I could not bear it so soon again!

Oh, must I go, must I do anything  but sit here, lay there,
pace where there is space to do so….
If this pain could bring tears, I would cry, I cannot.
If this pain could be healed, I would run to the Healer, I will not.
If this pain could be coddled, I would crawl into the arms of….?
but who can comfort me?  None, none here, none now.

I can’t forgive myself, as the images torment my mind and my heart and my spirit.
I can’t see anything but my ignorance.
I dare not think too long on how others must have perceived me,
to do so fills me with dread and impending doom,
permeating my whole being, causing a collapse in and out of myself

I have become ill, debilitated with this pain, fear
fear of loss…. of what?

I cannot find a place of acceptance for myself
there is no where for me to go with this nightmare
I must wash it from within……how?
By knowing what the fear is, the loss is?

Coming face to face with my own ignorance is not a bad thing….
fertile ground for Spiritual growth…
but me, I just fall into the darkness, face to face with my Black Wolf.
We stare at each other…once again…sizing up
Who will be victor this time?

I am hopeful of a full recovery, for as the pain works within me
I shed, once again, more of my ignorance…
Now knowing my fear….        That “I” should  be victor,
My loss….        That my Wolf would not!

 

Copyright  2008 by JD Adam
All rights retained by Author.  Wolf may be freely copied and freely  distributed without request as long as this copyright notice remains in place.

Blogging 101 – An Admission…..

Well, I did say I was SLOOOOW….. seems the constant “care and feeding of a ‘Nobody’ ” is a lot more time consuming than I wanted to realize. Please laugh with me….at me is fine too! SMILE!

My apology for not engaging with you all as the course progressed. Yet you each have touched me with your creativity and compassion, and that is something to write about! So as I go my snail’s pace through the lessons you’ve already so enjoyed, perhaps you will be kind enough to say hello if you will? You have touched me and aided my healing, that, my Friends, is met with eternal gratitude.

Thank you, WordPress Blogging 101, your curriculum is excellent and easily followed (for me with a glossary of course!:) ) The combination of technology and publishing is a challenge for an old ad person like me, use to “dead lines” and having “people for that”. LOL And I’m way beyond my “dewy” days!

Great Blogging to you all, you have given me the affirmation to keep going, even though I’m clueless in so many ways….you always ‘fill me in’.

JD Adam aka
‘Nobody’ on the Isle of Cyclopes

Blogging 101 in progress….

Day 1 (a day late, of course!) Who am I? JD Adam. Androgyny is my mystery :)  Indeed I Belong to the Dog, even though she’s waiting for me beyond the Veil. Truth and Beauty is my quest, and wow, have I been working hard of late! Yet, I find in the words of others hope to inspire myself when my mind’s eye spasms shut for lack of Light! It is focus I lack in this time of such great need for remembering our humanity, to challenge ourselves to remember a time of authentic Human Interaction born of Heart-sense, not FEAR.

Freedom, Privacy, Good Will….Rest NOT IN PEACE!

As I notice this day, the last day in 2015, a long suppressed uncontrolled sigh raises it’s voice in my chest and throat, a moan…or a small and weak wail.

Freedom – gone, if you care to look.  I heard it put as “the Freedom to NOT choose.”  That’s presupposing we have any choice of action left to us that won’t turn us into targets for any number of hideous Fascists, all with the power of so called legitimate use of “fatal force”, with inroads into every nook and cranny of our private places, and it’s exponentially worse if you are a Female and or Black, Brown or “un-christian” in any perceivable manner.

Do Not Rest In Peace, O FREEDOM who sounds your call with every living heart beat!  Rage, Rage!  Rage against this prison in which you are caught!

Privacy, dear sweet Privacy, you are my restorer, you are my Secret Garden where I breathe clean sweet smelling air, read stories that remind me of more things than technology and tell my Beloveds of my hopes and wishes, knowing within this secret we share a power builds by which to fulfill our mutual hopes and wishes together. This power grows in the  privacy of hearts and minds. Privacy, the Gold of Good Will, only within this sanctified state of being can any human become intimate with another. That special smile our Beloveds hold for us and us for them, may  never cross our faces again in this era of Full Eclipse of the Heart.

Do Not Rest in Darkness, O Privacy, mine!  Hide not in the earth or under rocks abandoned by the very enforcers criminalizing the living for Profit!  BLINK NOT, eye of my Mind and Heart, do not fear the end of yourself, for that end has already been bought by the Fascists and indeed you are trapped…yet the rocks themselves will take up our Holy call for the privacy of Soul, Mind and Body – Every voice will sing,  Angels will speak and all that is revealed will be as nothing to hearts that have held true to themselves and their Beloveds….

And now, Good Will….so many we have buried, and with each one, a great amount of Goodness lost in graves….so much so even in this USofA we shoot people dead for knocking on our doors for help.  Blood for Blood, and now everyone is bloodied….there may never be an end of it, but we certainly can be assured of an end to us if we cannot lay down blood feuds, by whatever name they come calling. One cannot have Good Will and take seriously a task of “murder” as an acceptable act of humanity.  It’s simple, our hearts, minds and souls are keen, tuned in to Truth, so hungry for it in fact that we will make up one rather than accept one we don’t like…We want PEACE and FREEDOM that springs from PRIVACY  and we want to offer and receive GOOD WILL!  We will live out our desires within our own homes and community, and a truth not as great as ones to come, but far superior than those that have over come us will be forged as we lay down those sweet things that have been so very fouled, our Freedom, our Privacy and our Good Will and choose for ourselves how much Truth we are willing to accept, and from whom!

Thus as a ridiculously insane year is finally spent like the full metal jacket it was, let it never rest, let it’s revelations be just the beginning of a truly Brave New World!

Wishing you Peace in sleep, Freedom to Love, Privacy for Butterfly kisses and my own Good Will to you and all you Love!

“nobody” on the Isle of Cyclopes

 

 

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Armistice 11.11.11

“An armistice is a formal agreement of warring parties to stop fighting.”

Smiling to life.worldpress

An armistice is a formal agreement of warring parties to stop fighting. It is not necessarily the end of a war, since it may constitute only a cessation of hostilities while an attempt is made to negotiate a lasting peace.

The Armistice of 11 November 1918 was an armistice during The First World War between The Allies and  Germany – also known as the Armistice of Compiègne after the location in which it was signed – and the agreement that ended the fighting on the Western Front. It went into effect at 11 a.m. Paris time on 11 November 1918 (“the eleventh hour of the eleventh day of the eleventh month”), and marked a victory for the Allies and a complete defeat for Germany, although not formally a surrender. The Germans were responding to the policies proposed by U.S. President Woodrow Wilson in his Fourteen Points of January 1918. The…

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WHY you’re feeling drained all the time right now – and what to do about it before it gets worse!

“With these gifts being tweaked in our DNA to the point of being very prominent, we can’t ignore them anymore. Our ESP connection to one another, our Bluetooth connection to God / Universe, our gift of empathy to feel others and the earth (a human trait, by the way, one of our strongest) are all bursting online like pop rocks being dropped into Coca Cola. We are EXPLODING with spiritual gifts at a microbial level.”

From Psychic / Medium Danielle Egnew

*****PLEASE SHARE to anyone struggling right now!****

This blog EXPLAINS in detail what is ACTUALLY GOING ON physically (and spiritually) right now. There is all this buzz about “Ascensions Symptoms” yet I’m not seeing a whole lot explaining what it is, why it’s happening — or what to do about it. Only that it’s happening, and you may feel crummy. (Can I get a “DUH” from the classroom? ;)) This “ascension” is VERY physical, and in my opinion, this is the most important aspect to address. It’s killing me that there isn’t more out about the physical aspect of this issue.

In fact, this whole Ascension issue has become so esoteric and metafizzly that I really think many are missing the point of WHAT IS HAPPENING at this critical time. So I will do my best to weigh in with information that is applicable day to day, rather than simply…

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What indeed…causes CORRUPTION OF THE INNOCENT, MORAL MIND OF HUMANKIND?

I’ve long wanted to write and share my thoughts on the terminal Cancer of Elite Rule…it just always seems to be rather useless! Every day in every way, instead of our Species getting “better and better” we are bombarded with Propaganda in every media source, old and new, to make us afraid, Very Afraid. Its long been the adage of “bad guys”, from Bible times to old Westerns and Wall Street Wolves and their Bankster Gangsters, “If you can’t get them to join you by appealing to their greed and need, dominate them by fear.” Remember that? … use to be a “moral” lesson we learned so as not to fall into such insipid slavery. “NOW GREED IS GOD”, yes, “God”, not just GOOD! Wow!

Such a turn in the Human consciousness requires a phenomenon that we of the non-elite almost never share…until now. What could possibly have changed so dramatically and quickly to take a healthy man, woman and child from the joy of doing “right” by themselves, their families and their neighbors to trembling in fear with their doors locked; electronic surveillance watching every entrance with touch ready monitoring of their humble abode filled with generations of treasure and maybe a child or pet or two? What causes normal people not in a war zone (there are still many of us) to close our drapes and peek “outside” our windows at who is on the street or what is happening in the house whose drapes aren’t closed; trembling in what once was the anticipation of coming together with friends and family and neighbors in good humor and sharing? Now we are filled with anxiety and a sense of threat from every house, of every person who dares to think of themselves as FREE and not subject to others’ judgement, especially our own, we “observers”. Wondering how they deem themselves to be so FREE that they are actually “out in the streets”; taking walks with their children, dogs or pushing infants in strollers or carrying signs declaring our Humanity and Compassion? And “OMG” they don’t LOOK LIKE US! Whatever the hell that ever meant, since we are each unique and wondrously original and in FACT, NO BODY LOOKS LIKE YOU OR ME!! Except of course the proverbial Identical Twins…and such twins just look like one another!

What indeed…causes a person to monitor another’s resources so closely as to be able and even willing to report their neighbor if asked by the Water District or “Home Inspectors” (who come in many guises of Authority) to do so? What “motivates” any individual to pick up a phone intimating wrongdoing on another’s part, to talk to an absolute stranger about the personal goings on of someone that could be known to them for decades or not at all?

When’s the last time you heard and saw children playing outside of their own fenced-in backyards, all a twitter with joy and activity, sweet squeals of delight or feigned fright? Now I hear screams, not squeals, and real fear, not pretend and I cannot see the injured to tend to their fear, for all are injured, adults and children. Mostly I wonder at the ice cream truck! As an American capitalist well indoctrinated, I wonder how long we’ll have that corny old music playing as the driver comes up our street, after all there are no more children bustling out of their front doors with hard earned allowances in hand, excitedly positioning themselves to insure they are to get their favorite treat. I have seen one child, held onto as if in bondage by one parent with dollars in hand. Where is the joy?

Where indeed? We are assured of a significantly shortened life span along with the generations now in our care. Stress kills. What is the cause of our melancholy lives, our anxious, depressed children….?

What indeed? Even if you do choose the once comfortable stance of following Authority, you are convinced everyone is watching you as well, or perhaps you deem yourself the only one who can really rout out any “suspected…….” just fill in the blank, water waster to terrorist or any fearful troll you may imagine. But then, if by some miracle, reason still persists, you have to question your own judgement on occasion. Do you really know? Could anyone know that about you? Likely not. Or perhaps you are one who walks in the world Freely, with kindness and charity; what then do you do when you have been “found out” and “reported” by the neighbor who still has your tools or your Tupperware? How do you deal with being Free and yet enslaved by the agenda of another enslaved by Phantom Fear? Either way, where is the Joy? What happened to us?

What indeed……? Have you wondered? What indeed…. has sucked out the life generating Joy that once was our way of Life, our way of caring for each other and ourselves, of trusting strangers and Policemen…..?

What indeed?! Our stories have always told us that it is love and kindness; tolerance and intelligence that drives individuals to advancement and thereby the society they form… you know; contribution, cooperation….PEACE AND LOVE BOUND BY REASON!

by “Nobody” living on the Isle of Cyclops